18 December 2014

Simbang Gabi 2014 Notes

Day 1: You know it's the first night when there's that distinct smell of sweaters and jackets on their first excursion out of their owners' closets for the first time in months, maybe a year. Good for them. Cheers to temporary freedom!

Day 2: I fully understand the need of parents to bring the kids with them, I really do. Bring a toy if you must. We all know how kids are. But please, DO NOT let your kid play with a singing, dancing fish while at church. Seriously, DON'T. EVER.

Day 3: I tried to ignore them, truly. I reminded myself I was in church. That I was there to hear mass. Not to go grammar and spelling police so early in the morning. But... but I'd like to know who was responsible for the... the mistake? Who made those teenage boys wear green sash that says USHERETTE? You know what's even more sad? Those boys have no idea they are now, uh, girls.

Day 4: Wonderful singing voice by the one leading the Responsorial Psalm. You close your eyes and feel every word go right through your very veins. Yes, that kind. His voice quality is so outstanding I was half-expecting The Voice PH coaches to appear out of nowhere.

Chilly morning. Very Christmas-y. So refreshing especially since the mass is being heard out on the patio. You get a whiff of dog poop when the wind blows but it's just a tiny blip to enjoying Christmas mornings in Morong.

Day 5: I am officially an old maid. I get bothered easily by misbehaving kids, no, tweens, during mass. I can understand children. Those small ones have no concept yet of what's appropriate or not. But tweens, they're 10 to 12-year-olds, pass First Communion age, I'm pretty sure they know the difference between a church and a park.

Four of them, initially, were seated in front of me. Two steps down the patio stairs to be precise. One boy and three girls. Boy at far left has his head down on his arms that were resting on his knees, sleeping. And so was the girl at far right. The girl beside the boy has her cellphone out, checking out photos. I mean you can't help it. She had it out in the open, for everyone to see. No effort whatsoever to hide it or something. She had it on her hands, elbows on knees. It wasn't possible to miss really. The girl beside her was chatting with her, occasionally looking on what cellphone-girl was showing her.

The lector finished with announcements, prayers before Processional, priest arrived at the altar, officially started mass and so on. They group never stood up. Still sleeping, phone still out, still chatting.

I was confused, annoyed, flabbergasted, you name it. At some point they were joined by some of their friends, how many I wasn't sure. I tried desperately to concentrate on the mass, looked straight, never looked down. There was a rustling sound some time, I ignored it. Gospel, Homily passed, they were still in their own world. I guess I lost it at Offertory. I can't hear the priest, the group's voices were drowning what's being said. I let out a "Shhh!" then look down at them for a second. They got the message, for a minute. Then back on. I was at a loss for words. Just before the Lord's Prayer, cellphone-girl stood up. I was like, 'Oh finally!' But no, she got out of her seat, stepped down the steps and walked away, presumably to the restroom. Before the Lord's Prayer!

Thankfully, at long last, the group stood up to sing Ama Namin. Praise the Lord! Then sat down again after. Cellphone-girl came back to sit again. I was dying in disappointment. And believe it or not, when Communion is about to start, they stood back up again, to receive the Holy Communion. I was about to go crazy. For the love of... I stepped down, fell in line. Didn't come back there after. I chose a spot meters away from them and just stayed standing up until the end of the service.

i don't believe they were still there but for my own sanity I let myself in the fantasy.

I'm... I'm... What was the point exactly? Why bother getting up so very early in the morning just to... just to... hang?

Oh, I discovered the reason for the rustling sound before I walked away from them. They were eating! Like Chippy! That also explained the coughing fit I heard. Too much salt with no drinking water. Well...

I tried my best to concentrate but there's too much going on in front of me. I was so bothered by the utter disrespect for the church and of the Holy Mass of those young people.

I felt guilty myself for not being 100 percent into it. I hope to do better tomorrow. But please, kids, if you can't or won't participate in the service, don't bother coming at all.

Mass distraction, that's what they are. May they receive enlightenment hopefully before Christmas day.

P.S. Dear teenage girl in a blue Apartment 8 dress. You look good. Dress looks great on you. But the transparent part on the midriff area and down below close to the hemline is too inappropriate to wear to church. Seriously.

Day 6: As I have said before, I understand why parents bring their small kids to church. What I don't understand is why they felt the need to buy them a toy that is sure to disrupt the service. The twinkling multicolored lights are disturbance enough but tolerable. One that yells dancing tunes, that's just too much.

You have a toddler, you should know by now how to deal with your kid. A little manipulation never hurts. You give a child a toy that squeaks and sings, chances are he will get that thing to squeak and sing, over and over again.

I wanted very much to snatch the toy away, take out its batteries then give it back to the kid. Tell him the toy got tired and decided to sleep. Maybe he should sleep, too?

Day 7: Visiting priest from Pampanga was late for 45 minutes. Nothing else to do but people watch. Kid from yesterday turned up with his family clutching the source of my irritation. I chanted silently, "Oh no, not here. Not here. Move along." Lucky they did.

Service was fast but insightful. Morning chill chills. Seven down, two to go.

Day 8: Quiet service. Almost done.


Day 9: Done! It's raining though so the mass was held inside the church. And I was a bit late because of two nieces who decided to join me for this last night. Church was packed. But people here are nice and merry they lent us their plastic chairs so we weren't standing all throughout. 

I could do with some Christmas carols at the end but it's just me. I feel like we all need cheering up after the rains somehow managed to 'rain on our parade' literally.

Anyway, I did it. Again. From start to finish. Although it didn't finish the way it started, it was still the same old Simbang Gabi. Dawn masses, not the anticipated ones for me this year.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ME AND TO YOU ALL!

Let us not forget the reason for the season.

09 November 2014

Too Close to Home


14 days after Yolanda, I found myself in a makeshift movie set as they simulate a Category 5 hurricane in New York City. I stood there horror-struck, feeling sick and completely unable to appreciate the movie magic happening before my very eyes. All my brain could process was that's how it was in Tacloban and Samar, maybe even worse. It was distressing.

I totally wanted to go out the moment I realized what I was about to see but I didn't think it was possible when the ushers closed the door. That was by far the most uncomfortable experience of my life. I told the sis-in-law on our way out, "Parang mali we even watched that." Too close to home.

I felt like posting a sign at the door for Filipinos not to proceed as it may be troubling. And damaging to the soul, really.

As the nation remembers the anniversary of Yolanda, I will continue to pray for the people of Samar and Leyte to have never-ending strength and courage to help them through the rest of their lives.

(Photo from the Universal Studios Singapore website)

16 September 2014

Cheerdance 2014 Notes

A compilation of my tweets on the most anticipated event of the season. Here's the 2014 UAAP Cheerdance Competition in 140 characters (max).
























































Big, big congratulations to the NU Pep Squad for defending the crown, the UP Pep Squad for always introducing something new to the world of cheerdance, and to the UST Salinggawi Dance Troupe for making it back to the podium after years of absence. To the other teams, you did well, but you can always do better next year. Cheers to all of you! 

23 May 2014

Five Little Things I Learned in Singapore Part 2

  1. Me, my cellphone and Singapore? We're not meant to be. On my first visit, my international roaming was just an idea. It didn't work. It was something I counted on the moment the plane landed but left me so out of reach for the whole trip I didn't know what to do with myself . I felt like a drug addict undergoing withdrawal. Every single day I would check my phone in the morning hoping to see something on the signal indicator. Nada. One week I was depressed because I can't use my phone except to take pictures. It felt ridiculous charging it twice because it didn't serve its main purpose. Five years later, I finally have that "Welcome to Singapore" message on my mobile the second I turned it on. But then in two hours, whether I have roaming or not didn't matter. I have no mobile device to speak of. Welcome to Singapore indeed! 


  2. New shoes, new sandals, never a good idea. On the fourth day, my niece, the curious child that she is, asked why I have bandages (yes, plural) all over my feet. 
  3. Short pants equals mosquitoes. I was so traumatized by my last vacation I promised myself to never go anywhere wintry again. Or at least the next time I go out of the country. And I was happy, deliriously so, to be able to go out and about not wearing jeans or any warm clothes. Not a fan of layering, me no deny it. Funny how you don't factor the little things when you think you had your way. I got home from a day of fun with mosquito bites all over my legs. Off! lotion failed to do what it's supposed to do. 
  4. City tour, never again. You wait and wait, and wait, and wait. Precious time wasted. 




  5. This one's so unusual it took me a while to get over it. Dog poop in the sidewalk. Like seriously. The Singapore we all know is changing and I should have realized it after my mind reconciled with the fact I actually lost my phone in this city-state.